Diary in the UK
04/02/05
Black week...
This week ws really awful, especially Thursday. I felt that every
thing hates me even my teachers. I couldn't concentrate on anything. I
didn't do homework. I had a headache. I felt dizzy. I want to cry! So,
I went back home after the first class. It was my first absence. I couldn't
believe that. I had never thought about absence. My heart was completely
black.
Sometimes and suddenly I fall in to a dark side. At that time, every
bad memories attacked me. Moreover, every little problems became big and
serious. I feel every person is mean to me.Of course, it had gone now so
that I can write. Just I'm afraid that it will happen on exam day!
Anyway, many class mates were anxious about me. I'm so sorry and
thank them. They thought that I studied hard too much. It's wrong. I'm
too old to study hard, I mean I can't. I know how to be lazy more than
them. I don't know how to study efficiently. It's too late to think by
exam, and I'm extremely tired today. I need a rest to go to London tomorrow.